Monday, January 19, 2004

"That's why they're called accidents....not purposes!"

Gotta love five year old wisdom! Went to Winnipeg on the weekend and got into minor accident. Other than some general muscle pain and vehicular damage, everyone is ok. Even the van isn't so bad off. Nothing compared to that belonging to the poor lady who rear ended us. I think there are still pieces of her van somewhere in the intersection. Otherwise it was a pretty good trip. The kids got to swim and go to "Toys for Us" to buy "toys for them" so it was a nice time for all. They also got an extra Chistmas that they weren't expecting with my birth/original family. My birthparents hadn't seen the kids in three years so it was interesting. S. wasn't even really talking the last time we were there and now she doesn't stop. My relationship with them is finally starting to slowly improve which leaves me hopeful for the future. I met them when I was 18 which in my opinion was way to young. For the first couple of years, we muddled through a relationship that can only be describe as fucked up. Counselling probably would have been a good thing, but you never usually acknowledge that you need that extra help until things are beyond fixing. I started talking to them again in the fall after a 2 1/2 year hiatus, mostly because I missed my two brothers and because I thought it would be good for the kids. So far so good, but I must admit that I'm getting tired of being the one who always puts the effort into staying in touch with them. They have alot of guilt regarding giving me up and I find that it really affects things. Despite my joke about being a "pound mutt" I have no negative feelings towards them. She was only 15, could it really have been any different??? Anyways, adoption and reuions are one of my soap box issues, so I will stop talking now before I find a hammer and some nails and start building.
T. started his new job today. His suit and tie is an interesting switch from the Princess Auto attire of the past couple of months. So far he's enjoying it....but then, it's barely past lunch time.....

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