Monday, January 10, 2011

Too many blogs, too little time!

While i'm not closing up shop here, I have found the need to redirect my energy. Although I will keep this blog up, I can be found more regularly at:

http://www.tatyannashope.blogspot.com/ - I'm attempting a 365 project this year....not sure that I will last the whole 365, but I'm going to give it my best effort

www.janellezazalakphotography.com/blog - it's a work in progress but something that i'm really excited about!



Monday, May 03, 2010

I've totally neglected this blog as of late. Busy has been an understatement. I am starting to feel like chauffeur mom as I shuttle the kids to appointments, sporting events and other miscellaneous commitments. Interestingly, our lives seem even more normal for it. Tatyanna has been doing really well. Both kids survived the chicken pox and are back in school. Although it's chaotic, I kind of like it.


Monday, April 19, 2010

It's strange, being the parent to a Batten kid -you go along thinking that you're really doing ok and then you get handed a paper at school to fill out and on it is the question "What do I want to be when I grow up" and it's like you've been sucker punched.....so I answered Canadian Olympic show jumping team member - I figure if we're going to dream, it might as well be big.



Tuesday, April 06, 2010

Lexi quote of the day - "hey....wait a minute....aren't chicken pops a kind of food?!"

"Ummm, that would be corn pops sweetie.....Tatyanna has chicken pox...it's a little different"







Saturday, March 20, 2010

love


Definition of sisterly love - taking the time to cover your sister's eyes, because she is no longer able, before your own during the scary part of the movie- Disney's new frog princess. I wish I had my camera for that moment, it was priceless. (I may or may not have had to leave the room because I got all teary eyed.)


Friday, March 12, 2010

A key difference.....

The difference between 11 & 4yr old daughters - the 4 year old watches you get ready and says "wow, mommy, you look pretty!", while the 11 yr old comes into your room, wearing your clothes and says "this looks a lot better on me.....can I have it...."



Tuesday, March 09, 2010

Due to the sheer craziness of the last few weeks, I have been having a hard time staying caught up on both Tatyanna's blog and my own. Please feel free to check in on things here:

www.tatyannashope.blogspot.com

As soon as we adjust to this new normal it will return to business as usual over here.....I hope!



Friday, February 19, 2010

Two years ago today we received Tatyanna's diagnosis of LINCL. In the time since, I have learned to become a researcher and advocate, I have become stronger than I ever thought possible. I have learned that it's ok to live in the moment, to let go of what or who is not important and to celebrate the small things. I've seen that there is light and hope and beauty in the darkest places and that sometimes the miracle you pray for is not the miracle that you receive but that they are all around you .....you just have to look -sometimes really really hard. :)

As put, rather insightfully, by one of the other Batten parents, "our children aren't dying from Batten Disease, they are living with it." I believe that if we focus on the negative then the disease wins and our losses will be far greater than the obvious. That isn't to say that there aren't bad days, that there aren't times when the pain threatens to overwhelm and the very act of getting out of bed is a supreme effort of will. I'm human, after all, there are days when my strength falters and my spirit is tired. But, I have to remember, this isn't about me....it's about a little girl with more courage and heart than I have ever seen in another human. It's about a little girl who once radiated enough energy that she almost seemed to sparkle. It's about my sweet daughter who at the end of being poked and prodded for the millionth time still had it in her to smile and want to give out hugs to anyone around. Because of her, at this moment, I choose to celebrate what is good. Even when things look their bleakest, there is still love and laughter and life.




Sunday, February 07, 2010



One of the first Batten parents that I "met" in the days following Tatyanna's diagnosis was Miranda. Over the months that followed we talked on the phone, exchanged emails and supported each other through what can only be called a parent's worst nightmare. We evolved from recruits, drafted by force but eager to fight, into seasoned veterans with more knowledge about "trench warfare" than either of us could have anticipated. Optimism gave way to realism and although hope prevails, neither of us is naive any longer. We know the costs, we've watched the ranks swell and mourned the losses of so many courageous kids. Kids who had to fight so hard and ultimately lost their battle. On January 17th, Miranda and her husband Neil lost their beloved Hailey to Batten Disease. She was only 7.

Although their hearts are breaking the Goranflos are committed to the fight. Their son Carter also has Battens and unless a cure is found soon, he will join his big sister long before he's ever had a chance to live. The attitude of many Batten parents is very much one of "We may lose this battle, but we will NOT lose the war" Our kids can't die in vain. A cure must be found. Please, this Valentine's consider helping in the fight. Miranda and Neil have organized a fundraising campaign. It's simple, doesn't require a huge commitment and has the potential to be very effective. For the price of a box of chocolates this Valentine's Day, you could make a difference. You could be part of a miracle. Donate $10 (or whatever) and then tell 4 people to do the same. Ask that they tell four more. And on it goes! See, I told you it was simple! For more information, please go to www.haileyandcartersdream.com. Donations can be made through the paypal link on the site.



Tuesday, January 26, 2010



Treading rough water
Tumultuous current threatens
Sun still warms my face

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Ok, I know I'm not fooling anyone. I'm really more of a limerick/nursery rhyme kind of girl as of late but you get the idea. I also realize that there is nothing in the picture that even remotely hints of water or currents that aren't frozen solid. This is the prairies after all, sunflare and snow was the best I could come up with.

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And to those that periodically find my blog under the google search query of "what is Jean Batten's favorite color"....I have no idea, but I'm guessing sparkley red. :)

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Since Tatyanna has made the executive decision that sleep is for the weak and as such we can all go without thus rendering me incapable of forumlating complex sentences that aren't horribly run-on, I am going to put up some links, call it a blog post and grind myself some more dave's homeroast because it is awesome.

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If you feel like being amazed (i highly recommend this one!):

http://www.youtube.com/watch_popup?v=vOhf3OvRXKg

If you feel like being amused:

http://www.guidespot.com/guides/awkward_family_photos

Or, if you are anything like my daughter and could spend hours watching videos of strange cats:

http://en.video.canoe.tv/video/comedy/comedy/1906868833/creepiest-cat-ever/60379727001







Wednesday, January 06, 2010

lexi quote of the day:

"I'm getting bigger, pretty soon I'll have to get married....but I can't marry daddy......cuz YOU already married him first!" *insert glare*



Saturday, January 02, 2010

Inspiration Quilt

For the last several weeks I have been making my plea to all those on my facebook but for some reason am only now thinking to mention it on here. On January 22 a movie entitled "Extraordinary Measures" will hit the theaters. Starring Harrison Ford and Brendon Fraser, it is a story of a father's fight to save his 2 children from Pompei Disease. His fight so closely mirrors our own struggle in the Batten community and we are all hoping that it will help create awareness of the plight of the many children who suffer from rare conditions. To help give back to the community, Extraordinary Measures has a contest up on their website. The winner will receive a donation of $10,000 to put towards the charity of their choice. My plea to you all is to please take a moment to go to the website: http://extraordinarymeasuresthemovie.com/ and click on the link "Inspiration Quilt" On page two of the quilt is a video entitled "Noah's Hope:Fix You", you can also find it by typing Noah's Hope into the search feature. Noah and his little sister Laine, like Tatyanna, suffer from late infantile Batten Disease. Please take a moment to watch the video and then vote. Then, you can do the same thing tomorrow and the day after. In fact, you can vote every day! The 2 seconds that it takes may be all that's needed to make a difference. Noah's Hope Foundation will match the dollar amount if the video wins and all proceeds go directly to the fight against Batten Disease. Our amazing kids fight so hard but we need your help. Please.