Friday, January 23, 2004

Not much new. We took the kids out to a sit-down type restaurant the other day...a daring move as the last time we tried to do so, my daughter attempted to start a knife fight with her brother. This time was surprisingly uneventful. In fact the older guy at the table next to us congratulated T. on his well-behaved family.....what he didn't know is that we kept them quiet by playing hangman with words like fart etc. Hey, whatever works :)
Finally got an estimate back from my seamstress re: tudor style gown I'm having made and it's going to be much cheaper than I had anticipated. This pleases me to no end. Now I just have to come up with half the cost, which is still fairly substantial, so that she can order the fabric. Part of me can't believe I'm so giddily excited about a potential dress. I once did a gender type quiz with my ex and he scored higher on the female side than I did, so it doesn't seem right. But it is a recreation jane seymour/anne boelyn gown......this makes it ok right??

Monday, January 19, 2004

"That's why they're called accidents....not purposes!"

Gotta love five year old wisdom! Went to Winnipeg on the weekend and got into minor accident. Other than some general muscle pain and vehicular damage, everyone is ok. Even the van isn't so bad off. Nothing compared to that belonging to the poor lady who rear ended us. I think there are still pieces of her van somewhere in the intersection. Otherwise it was a pretty good trip. The kids got to swim and go to "Toys for Us" to buy "toys for them" so it was a nice time for all. They also got an extra Chistmas that they weren't expecting with my birth/original family. My birthparents hadn't seen the kids in three years so it was interesting. S. wasn't even really talking the last time we were there and now she doesn't stop. My relationship with them is finally starting to slowly improve which leaves me hopeful for the future. I met them when I was 18 which in my opinion was way to young. For the first couple of years, we muddled through a relationship that can only be describe as fucked up. Counselling probably would have been a good thing, but you never usually acknowledge that you need that extra help until things are beyond fixing. I started talking to them again in the fall after a 2 1/2 year hiatus, mostly because I missed my two brothers and because I thought it would be good for the kids. So far so good, but I must admit that I'm getting tired of being the one who always puts the effort into staying in touch with them. They have alot of guilt regarding giving me up and I find that it really affects things. Despite my joke about being a "pound mutt" I have no negative feelings towards them. She was only 15, could it really have been any different??? Anyways, adoption and reuions are one of my soap box issues, so I will stop talking now before I find a hammer and some nails and start building.
T. started his new job today. His suit and tie is an interesting switch from the Princess Auto attire of the past couple of months. So far he's enjoying it....but then, it's barely past lunch time.....

Monday, January 05, 2004

why do we live here again??

Day two of this insanely cold weather. Masochistic tendencies starting to vapourize and I find myself pondering a move to much warmer climates...like BC...or Calgary (chinooks are nice). Why do people live here...it's bloody cold. Anyways, much credit must be given to the blue behemoth that we sometimes call a van. Despite much vehicular bitching, it has started on both days. I like that. Although it takes all the fun out of driving (think pontoon boat on wheels) something has to be said for the fact that it started yesterday without being plugged in. Christmas and New Years were good. Even that quality family time that I used to dread, was pretty good this year. Decorations are down and Zoe the tree has now joined Sam, last years Christmas tree, in the back yard . The kids have had numerous fights since then over whose tree is the deadest. Apparently there is a gradient of deadness when it comes to Christmas trees. I must have missed that memo somewhere. Otherwise, nothing else new. Saw LOTR again yesterday and it still thought it was an amazing movie. My tattoo will finally be completed as of Wednesday, so I'm pretty pysched about that. It's been a work in progress since Oct. Due to the size and intricacy, it has required more that one sitting. Hopefully, Wed will be the last one.